My biggest problem is that I allow myself to live inside of my head. Dragging myself down, making myself miserable over nothing.

And the worst part is people feel sympathy for me, asking me what’s wrong until I have allowed them inside of my head. And that’s why people leave. They cannot take the storms that I create. And I can’t blame them.

Because I spend the majority of my time attempting to convince myself that the Logan inside of my head is not the Logan in real life.

I want to believe that I’m a beautiful young lady, whose thoughtful and caring, takes cares of her loved ones, has a big, kind heart and shares it often, is funny and loved by many. But most of all, I want to believe that I make a difference in people’s lives, in a positive and warming way.

Yet, my thoughts will not let me live that way.

Despite the constant ragging storm inside of my head, I go about my day doing anything that I can for other people and I always try to do the right thing, even when it goes against the grain.

I’m learning to take care of myself, I just hope one day I’ll fall in love with myself all over again.