I’m not quite convinced that things get better. I think somethings will stay the same, and eventually, we will learn to let them bother us less or learn to ignore them. Which, I don’t think that I am okay with.

I’m depressed, that’s something that I would like to get better, but there are reasons that I am feeling this way. I’m not just randomly sad all of the time. These feelings are real, these feelings are valid and it’s not something that can go away over time.

Because I don’t think crying myself to sleep most nights, getting my feelings hurt over comments or “jokes”, not being stood up for, begging for attention, constantly being fussed at for one thing or another is me getting better. I think it’s making things a lot worse.

I’d love to be proved wrong but at this point, why do I even bother?