This morning, I allowed myself to sleep in since I planned on working out after work. And in the morning I was emotional. I got upset over small things and wanted people to genuinely leave me alone.

I don’t understand where that feeling came from. But my mood swung from happy, to irritated, to sad, to doing okay. The rest of the day I was okay…but I still feel like lingering sad feeling.

Mood swings are a pregnancy sign… and honestly I hope that’s why I feel mentally teetering on the edge. I know chances are slim on your first try, but still. (I’m counting down the days I can take a text and confirm it).

Anyways, I left work around 1 pm and headed home. I planned to meet Vanessa at the gym at 2:30pm. We did back and biceps today but she had to leave to help family out. It was a nice warm up to what next week is going to look like for me – she’ll be out of town and I will be on my own.

Side note: she called me her best friend today (which obviously she is my best friend, but when I get a reassurance…it’s always so nice). I never feel like I’m anyone’s anything, it’s nice to be reminded. She told me I can text her on her trip about workout plans – so I confessed that I had been secretly writing our workouts down so that I can do them while she’s gone (she realized that’s why I ask what everything is called). Anyways.

I know I can do it, I just need to let myself be confident. (After all what am I scared of? – people approaching me or correcting me…which isn’t the worst thing in the world).

I finished my work out alone, then ran on the treadmill for 25 minutes hitting 2 miles and then heading home. My body feels throughly worked out and I’m proud to have hit some PRs today.

My brother helped me cook today too. He helped make home made collard greens (look, I’m an amateur chef at best) and they tasted amazing. I will definitely add them into my regular sides.

I started the day off sad and emotional and I’m ending it thankful and proud.