I did it, today I went to the gym by myself, and damnit I am proud of myself. It was leg day and I was determined to get a good workout and I did. V texted me that she wasn’t feeling well and then I asked her for a few more leg workouts. (I remembered all but two.)

Even though I am extremely proud of myself, I still feel very emotional this morning.. I was too tempted and took a pregnancy test yesterday. Obviously came back negative but I am going to test again on the 25th. My stomach was cramping, I am having mood swings like crazy, I am peeing a lot (I cut down my water in take), I craved Dr. Pepper Blackberry real bad last night (I know this might just be a me thing), and I am fatigued fast these days. Although these are all symptoms, I know that doesn’t mean that I am pregnant….but a girl can hope. Send baby dust my way! I’m feeling really impatient.

Honestly, I’m glad that tomorrow is Friday and I have weekend plans with Brandon for Valentine’s Day and then coffee with my best friend in Virginia over FaceTime to catch up, I miss her so much.

I’m going to try to keep positive today and keep to myself. I want to avoid unnecessary crying…which sounds so lame. But tiny mistakes right now will send the waterworks and I am NOT interested. Please if I cry, let me cry in peace on break or in the car on the way home.

Send me positive thoughts today please! My mental health needs it.