I feel over critical of myself today. We had the market, which went….okay. Admittedly, I have been having mood swings and I took it out on my mom today because I was frustrated. I couldn’t figure out this pattern that she used previous on a project she asked me to finish. I did it and redid it five times before I gave up and she did it. She sat down and did a few before standing up and actually interacting with people.

I feel that the first hour or so was my fault. Grandma did feel well, I was angry for no reason, and mom seemed sad.

Everyone started interacting and talking, I watch mom sell a couple of earrings and Gram sold some dominos, even her resin axolotls were a hit.

The only things I sold were two bags…to my own brother and mother in law. So I am disappointed in myself, but this was an experience and I have about a month to do other things.

The worst part is my mom had three earrings get stolen. I can’t help but blame myself for us sitting for the first part.

I need to find balance. I need to actually sleep and feel comfortable in my skin. If I’m miserable, I need to keep it to myself.