Today at lunch, we were chatting about weddings. Me and a couple of my coworkers were recounting on some special moments and funny moments throughout our wedding days.

It was so nice to revisit those times and it made me smile. But it made me more excited for the days to come as well.

We talked about my coworker having her baby and I talked about when we finally get pregnant how excited we would be.

I realize now that I am full-blown baby fever just awaiting for positive results. I thought about this while I was sitting there and crocheting a baby blanket. A baby blanket that I would keep if I had a girl.

I thought about how I may not be a traditional mother. I don’t care about gender reveals if anything that would be an intimate thing between me, my husband and the dogs. Because of course they have to be included, they’re the ones that got us together. I thought about how I wouldn’t stick to blue or pink. But rather purple or sage green, just like our wedding colors.

The blanket that I was making is a tie-dye yarn and it is purple and gray and white. I am making it one large green square blanket and it looks great so far it just makes my uterus ache a little bit.

I know that when the time comes, it’ll be perfect, but I can’t help but admit that I am impatient. I know I’m just so ready for this phase of life. It just excites me and frustrates me all at the same time.