Tomorrow I will get my hair and nails done for the first time since the wedding. (Well I’ve had my nails done, but you get it). It’s a spa day for me to kick back and relax.

Plus, I’ll be wearing my new shirt to announce that I’m pregnant to my friend that does my hair and nails. She’s going to be so happy. I cannot wait to see her reaction.

So, naturally….im in bed shortly after 9:30 because im going to be up early to get ready for my appointment. It’ll give me a good excuse to bring a book to read while I’m waiting between sessions.

Did I ever mention that I love early bed times? I love sleep right now. It’s just the morning sickness I could live without. Can’t wait to get away from it.

Anyways, goodnight!

Today I went back to gym for the first time since V has been gone. I went after work with her and I was concerned I wouldn’t be able to keep up or I would have lost what I gained, but I was able to pick it back up right where we left off.

It felt great to be back in the gym, I even felt better afterwards. I expected to feel exhausted and run down. But I was able to watch tv and run to the store with my husband for a birthday gift for his cousin’s kid tomorrow.

I was excited to go to workout again tomorrow after work but I forgot we had the birthday party to go to. So I’m allowing myself to sleep in and not worry about it. I’m giving myself some grace, I deserve it.

I also have been thinking about how pregnancy has changed me. I believed that I use to have people pleasing tendencies but now that I am putting myself and child first – I feel more in-powered.

I’m diggin’ it.

Today we told the parents that we are expecting. It felt so strange driving over to tell them. As if we were sixteen and going to get in trouble.

Although the bandana idea was adorable, it made them hard to read by the way they folded on the dogs. My mother in law screamed and hugged me, and continuously jumped up and down so ecstatically. She cried when we left. My father in law congratulated us and was happy we told them.

When we walked over to my parents, I had my mom come outside and my dad was already out. My dad paid no attention to the dogs but my mom saw it right away and gasped and mouthed asking. I nodded but told her to wait until dad saw it. We had to hold Luna still to read her bandana and his reaction was, “nu huuuuh, no way!” And he was grinning from ear to ear.

Lastly, we went to my sister in laws. Where we got her to read Nyx’s bandana and she asked if we were expecting. She’s super excited that we are expecting at the same time.

All in all, everything happens for a reason. I’m so glad that I have the village I have to support us. Friends and family.

This coming week, it’s time to tell close friends… I have just the shirt for that.

Tonight we had dinner with my parents and I learned that my uncle was diagnosed with cancer. A nonaggressive type and he is planning on going through treatment. It was overwhelming to hear but it put a lot of things in perspective for us.

Including, our timeline to let the parents and family know that we are expecting got squashed. Our original plan was to tell them next weekend on the 25th by having a BBQ (weather permitting). However, between my uncle, my grandma (mom’s mom) and my other grandma (dad’s mom)…my parents are bouncing between Michigan and Ohio often annnnnnd not being available at the same time my Husbands family will be.

We talked on the way home and came to the conclusion that if we are telling them….it will be tomorrow. Otherwise, the next time will be five weeks from now.

Once we got home, we decided to tell my brother. I put a “Baby Security” bandana on Baja and let her tell him. His response was, “I knew it.” When in reality, he bet his girlfriend that I wasn’t. So she gets to get treated to going out and dancing! Good for her.

Tomorrow, we will out the bandanas that we got the dogs (Luna’s says “my humans are getting me a baby!” And Nyx’s says “I thought I was the baby”. Which is just perfect for them.) we will stop by their houses to let them know and tell them to keep it on the down low until we tell my extended family in Michigan…but lastly. We will post it on Facebook.

I feel so excited and nervous and everything in between. Mostly, I’m happy I do not have to hid it at home anymore. Nursery time? (I know it’s too soon, but come on!)

The day that we return from a trip is always disappointing. Because there’s a realization that I have to go to work tomorrow. However, tomorrow is a special day for us as we will be going to the doctors to see baby for the first time.

I have started referring to baby as Bean now. And I have a strong feeling that even though we are both hoping for a boy, I believe that Bean is a girl. I know it sounds crazy, but I do believe in universal signs and so far all of them are pointing to girl. But I know that it’s early right now.

I am grateful for the weekend that I had because it allowed me to truly relax and not worry about anything else until we returned today. After we returned, I felt refreshed and mentally well enough to clean the house without a problem and then relax on the couch.

I feel like I have been putting way too much pressure on myself at work at home and in my relationships and at this stage in my trimester, it’s really draining me altogether. So it was nice to take a step back and be taken care of and just focus on relaxing.

I have a half day tomorrow, which I think is even better in my opinion. Because it’ll be a half day at work and then the rest of the day I will have for my appointment and to spend at home relaxing.

I do feel guilt that I have not worked out since V is out of town. But I do think that my body needed this necessary rest in order to feel better and avoid morning sickness, or at least understand how to cope with that.

When she is back, I plan on being at the gym as often as the schedule allows us to be.

I’m also excited because this coming Saturday, I will be getting my hair and my nails done and it’ll be such a wonderful self-care day. And I look forward to booking more self-care days as time passes. 

Yesterday was the first day I forgot to write. I got caught up in leaving work, setting up the camper and relaxing with my husband it completely slipped my mind.

Today, we got up at 8am and ate cinnamon buns for breakfast. Then, we took the dogs on a hike and relaxed for a little while.

Our plan for the rest of the day is to relax, have a fire, eat tacos for dinner and roast some s’mores.

This weekend was what we needed!

It’s been a long awful day.

I spent all morning with a patient of mine hospitalized who suddenly fell into congestive heart failure. I helped with treatments, made sure she was comfortable on oxygen, helped get diagnostics, and sat with her for hours. Then the clients decided to let her go.

I, of course, understand. But she was a really wonderful cat and I enjoyed caring for her. I just wish that she turned around for them.

I’m happy I got to be their support system when they let her go.

I did go to the market to seek stuff with my mom and grandma. We only sold one thing, I blame the weather. It was so windy and miserable.

But all I can think about is camping this weekend…the relaxation will be worth the wait!

Today I took the morning a little slow, I set an alarm for sitting up in bed and eating crackers before I got out of my bed to ease my nausea away and it worked. I barely had any today, and I did not vomit this morning.

So, I’ll just have to buy stock in sprite and saltines.

I’ve also took the week off from working out…my body needed a rest. I’m focusing on finding a bed time routine to allow me to get enough sleep and not pass out the second I get home from work.

Tonight was the first night I read in a few days. I’m hoping to get more reading done this weekend.

I’m super excited about our camping trip. We are going to a beautiful park, with trails to walk if the weather permits. But, even if the weather does not agree, we have board games, card games, my switch, and we got birdhouses to paint. (we got the dogs busy toys).

It’ll be so nice just relaxing together doing absolutely nothing but fun stuff.

Listen, vomiting is not for the weak. Bitch, I am weak.

Today was my first incense of actually vomiting in the morning and let me tell you it was an eye opener. I feel as though I am now struggling in every aspect of my life, which sounds absolutely ridiculous.

I can barely work out. I am too exhausted to read. I don’t wanna make dinner, and my husband helped me. I don’t even feel like walking down the steps to switch over laundry. I just guilt my husband into helping me with literally all of my chores. (not really guilty because he’s a good man.)

Honestly, I feel kind of betrayed by womankind. because if everybody experience the same symptoms and things that I’m doing, I honestly don’t understand why I was not better prepared with this knowledge L O L.

I’m ready to be a mother, but wow this nausea. That nausea can absolutely catch my hands.

Also, you’re telling me that I’m going to have to deal with this for the next six weeks? Potentially longer? I’m gonna go cry myself to sleep.

Nausea has officially hit and it is my worst enemy. I am paralyzed by my nausea after I eat I have to lay down and I’m constantly worried that at any moment I’m gonna throw up.

Right now it seems like it’s gonna be the worst symptom to deal with just because I hate being a mobilized by my gut. However, I’d be lucky if it was the worst thing that I had to deal with.

I’m thinking a lot about us going and camping at the end of the week just my husband and I and the dogs. Even if it ends up raining, I know it’s gonna be so peaceful to get out and just spend time with us.

It will be the last weekend that just the two of us know and then we will be telling our families. It’s an exciting time in our life and I’m so grateful that I have to share it with him.

I also can’t wait until it’s out in the open so I can ask for more advice on how to deal with my more typical symptoms or potentially what I need to look out for. Because Lord knows the doctors aren’t gonna tell you any other thing.

A week from today, I get to have my first ultrasound and I’m so excited to see baby and actually know that it’s all real. I know that sounds insane after complaining about the symptoms but, every now and then you need reassurance.

I’m hoping the rest of my week isn’t filled with nauseous days.