Today we saw our little bean on ultrasound. (That’s what I’ve been calling our baby, still convinced it’s a girl). It was the happiest moment I’ve had this week!

Overall, the appointment went well it was overwhelming. I tried to nap, unsuccessfully. I slept really poorly last night, I felt nauseous almost all night and it kept me up despite my medication.

I’m hoping the rest of this week goes by quickly, I’m ready for the weekend!

I’m giving myself grace today because I’m exhausted. But excited for our ultrasound tomorrow!

Today we announced to my husband’s extended family that we were pregnant. My shirt was a huge hit, the boys really liked it. We went to a playground that reminded me of one I grew up playing at in Virginia. It was a wooden castle with lots to do for the kids.

We were there for an hour and a half running after the boys, pushing them on the swings, and watching how dizzy they got after the tire swing.

Afterwards we got ice cream with them and it was just such a nice outing. With more promises to do it again sometime soon.

It all made me realize that our kid will grow up close to his family. It made me so happy to think about how when they are older, they will be friends and they will run around together at a playground or even go to the same school.

At the same time, it also made me sad at the same time because they won’t be so close with my family. Between distance of Michigan, no one having kids their age, and the fact that they aren’t the most reliable bunch was enough to bring some tears to my eyes.

Even though they won’t be as close, I’m okay with it. Because they will get to know the sweet souls on their dad’s side of the family and people that will truly show up for them.

I suppose that’s all you really need.

it’s been a miserable couple of days. I have hardly been able to keep food down. Today was the first day in a long time, but I have kept food down.

I spend the majority of the day sleeping in and letting my body rest. I food that my body was craving. And I sat in the sun and read some while my husband put steps on the truck so that I can get in and out one further along.

Tomorrow we are going to the park with his cousin and her kids to announce and I’m excited. I made the shirt to wear because I love Toy Story.

I’ve been trying to give myself more grace when it comes to daily activities, but writing is the last thing on my mind when I’m headed to bed early for a long day.

Yesterday was my mom’s birthday and we went out to Mexican and I think I ate about two bites and that was it. It was a nice evening and I enjoyed celebrating her.

However, on the way home my husband farted in the car and I made him pull over so that I could vomit. He just so happened to pull into a church parking lot which in hindsight is pretty hilarious but at the same time, I feel bad for whoever takes care of their lawn.

I also only worked half the day yesterday because I was so constipated and vomiting and uncomfortable. My manager let me go home. I promptly spent the rest of the afternoon vomiting, and eventually my constipation went away, which is great news.

I honestly think constipation is a real devil in pregnancy. I never expected it but today I feel great. 

Listen. I’m going to be TMI in this post because I am so uncomfortable this is ridiculous.

I’d give A N Y T H I N G just to poop. I’m so beyond constipated, this is new fresh hell for me. I would much rather be vomiting nonstop currently than experience this.

I’m doing all of the things. I’m drinking enough water, I walked a bit to try to get it moving, I’ve eaten fiber filled meals, and I’ve taken the okay’d over the counter medications. N O T H I N G.

I could quite literally cry.

Someone tell me it gets better in a week, please. Is there a magic spell? Something.

I’ve been slacking bad on writing as my nausea and vomiting have gotten worse. I feel like a big baby because I tip toe around food and I’m just ready for that symptom to end.

I’ve found that red sauce/tomato sauce or soup is a big no go for me. So now I am cutting it entirely out of my diet for the time being. Which makes me sad because we are going out for Mexican on Tuesday and I LOVE salsa. But for the love of keeping food down, I’m going to have to pass.

I have been eating a lot of cereal. Which, I know, is not a balanced meal but the most important thing is – I am keeping it down.

Reese’s puffs and coco pebbles right now are my go to. I never ate cereal but right now it’s my saving grace.

I have a prescription for my nausea, I have preggie pops, I have my multiple snacks every few hours, my crackers in the morning, and I’m trying every other trick in the book. First trimester is all about survival I think…lol. At least I can laugh at myself,

We had a great Easter, went over to my husbands aunt’s house and got to watch all of the kids hunt for their eggs. Played with the kids a little bit before we went back home. It brings a smile to my face that next year we will be participating with a baby of our own.

It all makes it worth it.

Tomorrow I will get my hair and nails done for the first time since the wedding. (Well I’ve had my nails done, but you get it). It’s a spa day for me to kick back and relax.

Plus, I’ll be wearing my new shirt to announce that I’m pregnant to my friend that does my hair and nails. She’s going to be so happy. I cannot wait to see her reaction.

So, naturally….im in bed shortly after 9:30 because im going to be up early to get ready for my appointment. It’ll give me a good excuse to bring a book to read while I’m waiting between sessions.

Did I ever mention that I love early bed times? I love sleep right now. It’s just the morning sickness I could live without. Can’t wait to get away from it.

Anyways, goodnight!

Today I went back to gym for the first time since V has been gone. I went after work with her and I was concerned I wouldn’t be able to keep up or I would have lost what I gained, but I was able to pick it back up right where we left off.

It felt great to be back in the gym, I even felt better afterwards. I expected to feel exhausted and run down. But I was able to watch tv and run to the store with my husband for a birthday gift for his cousin’s kid tomorrow.

I was excited to go to workout again tomorrow after work but I forgot we had the birthday party to go to. So I’m allowing myself to sleep in and not worry about it. I’m giving myself some grace, I deserve it.

I also have been thinking about how pregnancy has changed me. I believed that I use to have people pleasing tendencies but now that I am putting myself and child first – I feel more in-powered.

I’m diggin’ it.

Today we told the parents that we are expecting. It felt so strange driving over to tell them. As if we were sixteen and going to get in trouble.

Although the bandana idea was adorable, it made them hard to read by the way they folded on the dogs. My mother in law screamed and hugged me, and continuously jumped up and down so ecstatically. She cried when we left. My father in law congratulated us and was happy we told them.

When we walked over to my parents, I had my mom come outside and my dad was already out. My dad paid no attention to the dogs but my mom saw it right away and gasped and mouthed asking. I nodded but told her to wait until dad saw it. We had to hold Luna still to read her bandana and his reaction was, “nu huuuuh, no way!” And he was grinning from ear to ear.

Lastly, we went to my sister in laws. Where we got her to read Nyx’s bandana and she asked if we were expecting. She’s super excited that we are expecting at the same time.

All in all, everything happens for a reason. I’m so glad that I have the village I have to support us. Friends and family.

This coming week, it’s time to tell close friends… I have just the shirt for that.