This is day two of no work for me. Today is just about taking it easy and resting my body. I am planning on going to lunch with my friend. I have to get my body moving some because my legs hurt from sleeping and resting too much over the past twenty four hours.

I did wake up in sort of pain this morning around 7am, but as soon as I got up and moved and took my medication, I felt better. I just hope that this will pass soon. I do not want this to continue to be an issue. I’m concerned about needing my gallbladder out. I do not want to have surgery because it will push back us trying to start a family. (But it would be much worse if I conceived and needed it out, so gallbladder, make up your mind!)

My goal for today is to relax, move around, and potentially finish this granny square blanket that I started so I can move on to baby blankets (for my coworker and his cousin—both boys!). I’m too excited for both of them. I love making baby gifts.

I made a crochet half-stuffed animal and half blanket for my other coworker; her baby loves it! It is his favorite thing to play with and sleep with (I made the blanket holey to avoid suffocation scares.)

I will admit, I feel so…(what’s the word for it?) left out? Envious? Jealous? I am so happy they can start their families or add to them. I just wish I had been there as well! I know one day, I will be, but now it just makes my heart swoon thinking about it.

I feel as though the only thing worse than being envious of other couples getting pregnant is the accusations of being pregnant simply because I did not have a drink at dinner with the family. It honestly feels like a huge slap in the face and it is beyond embarrassing.

But for right now, I will enjoy clapping for other people because one day, it will be me.