Tag: family

January 22nd

On By looogaaaaaanwritesIn 2025Leave a comment

This is day two of no work for me. Today is just about taking it easy and resting my body. I am planning on going to lunch with my friend. I have to get my body moving some because my legs hurt from sleeping and resting too much over the past twenty four hours.

I did wake up in sort of pain this morning around 7am, but as soon as I got up and moved and took my medication, I felt better. I just hope that this will pass soon. I do not want this to continue to be an issue. I’m concerned about needing my gallbladder out. I do not want to have surgery because it will push back us trying to start a family. (But it would be much worse if I conceived and needed it out, so gallbladder, make up your mind!)

My goal for today is to relax, move around, and potentially finish this granny square blanket that I started so I can move on to baby blankets (for my coworker and his cousin—both boys!). I’m too excited for both of them. I love making baby gifts.

I made a crochet half-stuffed animal and half blanket for my other coworker; her baby loves it! It is his favorite thing to play with and sleep with (I made the blanket holey to avoid suffocation scares.)

I will admit, I feel so…(what’s the word for it?) left out? Envious? Jealous? I am so happy they can start their families or add to them. I just wish I had been there as well! I know one day, I will be, but now it just makes my heart swoon thinking about it.

I feel as though the only thing worse than being envious of other couples getting pregnant is the accusations of being pregnant simply because I did not have a drink at dinner with the family. It honestly feels like a huge slap in the face and it is beyond embarrassing.

But for right now, I will enjoy clapping for other people because one day, it will be me.

January 11th

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I believe that it’s possible to meet the same person in different forms. I was thinking about this the other day when I was thinking about music reminding me of people from my past. I’m sure I just attract similar people because that is who my circle is.

I met one of my friends at work, she is very similar to a friend I had growing up. Everything including the red hair, spicy attitude, and same music taste. She brings out the goofiness in me and the strength. She allows me to let loose and be myself and then she cheers me on when I stand up for myself.

My new friend understood what it meant to be in a friend in the hardest of situations and stuck by me every step of the way, including beside me on my wedding day.

I met another friend through Brandon, a girlfriend of one of his friends. She is bold, caring, and makes sure that I am included in everything that is happening around me and if I’m not, she makes sure that I am okay. She has cried with me during health issues, she has stuck by me when older friends have faded away, and she helps me boost my confidence by putting me in situations I won’t do on my own. She stuck by my side when I shook my ass on stage in Kentucky during my bachlorette trip and she stuck by my side on my wedding day as well.

My new friend knew when to stick by me through guys, trouble, and drama inside of the group and never once did she turn her back on me. I never turned my back on her, I held her hand and checked on her during harder times, she is truly like a sister to me.

Even though I see similar faces from my past, with only the good parts attached, I am still grateful for the friends that I have held onto since grade school. Who I grew up with and matured with. Who saw the worst in me and still choose to stay.

My best friend, since 4th grade has been with me all of this time. We still keep in contact, we keep each other up to date on things going on. She is in schooling and helping manage a family restaurant, I am so proud of her. She cheers me on with my work ethic and is so excited to watch my family grow.

My other friend, he has been there since high school but he supported me in person at almost every soccer home game and I support him during his tennis matches. He is now in the service and flew down with his girl to watch me walk down the aisle. I’m so grateful for them.

I cannot imagine life without them. I am so grateful that I found the right souls to match mine, in whatever form. I can never thank them enough.